When I came here at Udaipur on 16th july,I was afraid that how the life will be? Udaipur did seem a sllepish town.And I was thinking ki pata nahi kaise life kategi,But after 1 month bahut hi accha lagane laga and ....Bahut sare ache log mile aur sab se ek accha relation ban..bahut acche log bahut acche dost..but sabse buri bat yahi ki posting meri bahut hi ghatia jahah mili...Mujhe bahut khushi hoti agar meri posting J'khand main ho jati...
Ab kuch likhan chahunga jo maine kal apani diary main rakha hai!!!
"Today is my last day here and tomorrow I am leaving to BARAN ,my next destination.Baht sare tension hain dimag main,pata nahi age ki jindagi kaise kategi! Bahut hi dukhi hun pata nahi kyon meri posting jharkhand main nahi hui.
and abhi rat ke 10:20 baj rahe hain.Vividh bharati sun raha hun.Sare log yahan se chale gaye hain,sirf main yahan akela rah gaya hun! ek ek ker sare log nikalate chale gaye,pahale ahemadabad wale then delhi wale den MP wale then Mumbai wale ...then sourabh and Abhinaw also gone I am alone here...Mujhe rine ki iccha ho rahi hai.ksi ke sath share karana chahat hun but ,,nahi ker pa raha hun..Aise hi kis jagah main, ye mahsoos hota hai ki jindagi main kisi khash ki kya jaroorat hai. 1 mahine mere jindagi ke kaise gujare mujhe pata hi nahi chala ,padhan khelana aur ghumana ..bus itani jaldi gujar gaye ki pata hi nahi chala....Bus sab logon ke nam likha chahunga:--
1.YAsh
2.Deepak dubey
3.Nishant Sah
4.Sonali
5.jigar
6.Sangeeta
7.Nistha nagar.
8.Meena
9.Madan murai jha
10.Saurabh awasthy
11.Abhinab budholia
12.Mohit
13.Kavita jain
14.Arun Sinha
15.Chinmoy
16.AMit mishra
17.Amar batham
18.Vipin
19.Yogendra thakur
20.Ganesh Phate
21.Mangesh Gujar
22.Anil
23.Manas
I liked these people and loved them,loved the group.I loved the extempore that i have given in Cultural programme.yes of course I hurt 1 or 2 people but that was not intentional.I never mind it.
Nistha felt too much humiliated but i never wanted to hurt any one. and Kavita and sangeeta also felt the same.I am alone here and thinking every bit of past time,i liked here.Y A Bhise sir ,Maheswari sir, Parihar sir and Jolly man..I liked the faculty.
I don't know why i am feeling alone and really sad.The feeling is same as i felt while LEAVING ARCHANA for mumbai in Chennai Central railway station.
Mujhe bhi rone ki bahut iccha ho rahai thi,per bahut hi muskil se sambhala.Bahut sare logon ke ankhon main anshu the.Yash bhaiya,abhinaw,mohit Rajnish,..maine bahut dino ke bad apani ankh main anshu paye..laga ki sare log kitane human hain...MAine in dino main apane upper YAsh bhai ka special attention dekha..mujhe ek dam se ANNA ki yad aa rahi thi same...pawan or Yash...mujhe pata hai aise log bahutb hi kam hote hain 1% ya phir is se bhi kam.Bahut hi accha insan mujhe inmain dikha.Aur Madan bhaiya ..kitane payar se mujhe kinare lekar samjhaya tha ki dekho don't hurt any one in Public. Ye acchi bat nahi hain and ...aur agar criticise hi karani hai to diplomatic hoker karo...He only told me that nistha ko kitan hurt kiya hai....kuch aur login ke sath accha relation bana...jaise Rajnish bhai,Saurabh bhai,amar and vipin..Minal bhai hamesha humare sath rahe humari lene main lage rahe...Aur mujhe is bat ka bhi payar mila ki I was the youngest member.....
Ab jayada nahi likh paunga ...kal main ja raha hun,jindagi main pariwartan hona chahiye..and soch raha hun ek jeans kharid lin ya na bhai kharidun..
Bahut hi dar hua feel ker raha hun..pta nahi baran kaisi jagah ho aur kaise main adjust karunga...aur agar 4 mahine ke bad bhi agar wahin jan pad gaya to pata nahi jindagi kaise jayegi...Sab kuch bhagwan per chodata hun aur sab kuch..bahut likh chuka ab band karata hun..
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