Can't bear some one tears...

Yeah this is the right thing am cheating some one and cheating deeply. I know what is truth but don't know how to handle it.....I don't know why this happned to me..and this always happens to me
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This really hurts me and it did a lot...a lot of tears and am here to coaxing and cajoling some one....m knowing i am betraying some one..Kisi ke emotions ke sath khel rah hun..but khelata rah ..I don't know waht was on another side but I was always knowing what's in my side..
Any way i can only suggest..be happy where ever u are.....an wherever u need me i wil b always there..but b happy....We al have to manage some what..and we learn to respect God's decesion...

Once again Wo akela pan wo tanhai....

Phir se wahi shunya....Wahi shani wake ekaki and wahi akelapan...
Same feeling sare log ghar ja rahe hain aur main nahi ja pa raha hun..Lg bhi mere bare main pata nahi kya kya sochate honge....Per mujhe bhi lag raha hai kuch dino ki chutti nikalker ghar ho lena chahiye...
Pata nahi aaj kyon ajab sa feel ker raha hun...ek dun wahi tanhai and wahi viranapan feel ho raha hai jaise 14th aug ko udaipur main ho raha tha...
Any way sham ko kuch likha wahi kuch line likhena chahunga...
"Yahan andar ka sunapa bahut paresan karata hai/Ekaki aur tanhai bus 2 hi nam hain jindagi ke/khabhi anadar ki tanhai aur khabhi bahar ka sunapan/bus yahi jindagi hai/sochata hun jab bahar main diwali ki jagmag hogi to andar ek shyah wirana hoga,ek kali andheri rat hogi/pata nahi main aisa kyon ho gaya hun/pata nahi kyon///
Bus aisa hi chalata rahega ..jindagi

Long ago....

Long ago I posted here something and ...as I know ..I can't write any thing when i m not in mood....This time ...m writting.....feeling something diffrent..something blank in my life...every one has a planning for this dipawali ..but i don't..Where to go and why to go? Don't hv enough money to be at home and also not having lot leaves..so i just dropped the plan....
m right now in SBBJ training center..for last 10 days as i arrived here on 5th ..and got a quite a diffrent feeling on 1st day itself.....I just got the emptiness of friendness.....such a foolll..i ma but now it's clear ..how i jv to behave and how i hv to be here.......got the clear idea..
Not spaking to much...yup people are diffrent here. from TCS......many manners..and m trying to accomodate myself here...
people in TCS were all alone ..but they were not interfering in other' life and here..lot of stuff is to enjoy..and..lot of stuff to bu amused.....
A diffrent variety of people m getting here..and perhaps enjoying...